Living With a Dying Alcoholic

I have been with my boyfriend for a little over a year and a half. He is a severe alcoholic. Both parents, grandparents, i belive great grandparents and most of his family are alcoholics and many other members of his family have died from alcoholism. He has been in treatment 3 times but to no avail. It started getting really bad when he was admitted to the hospital for General Intestinal bleed meaning the lineing of his stomach had torn and been ate away as a result of the alcohol. This is called Mallory Weiss Syndrome where the alcohol eats at your insides to the point of near death. This was the first time he almost died as a result of his addiction. After that he promised to stop drinking and entered another tratment program but ended leaving after only a couple days. Of course, he started drinking heavily again and ended back in the hospital after vomiting up part of his stomach lineing. This time the doctors told him that he only has two years to live if he continues but could save himself if he stopped. He vowed to stop but as always started again. He will take off to drink, cant keep money in his pocket becuase it goes to beer and has lied to cover up his drinking and the stupid things he does while drunk. And this brings me to where i stand now. This morning he couldnt get up to go to his doctors appointment because of his hangover and then made us late because he decided to go in the bathroom and drink. When we finally got to the hospital hr puked up bloody beer vomit all over my car and himself soaking my interior as a can of Mickeys pokes out of his pocket. He continues to tell me that he is going to get treatment but has not. I can not force him to get better or stop drinking but it breaks my heart to watch him die. I have left him over this but we ended up getting back together. I go to school and work and pay for all his medications in order to keep him alive. I know as anyone reads this they will think im an idiot for sticking around. I myself dont even understand why i do. Tears never stop and i can cry for hours as my heart rips apart watching him dive to the bottom. Here i am, no one to talk to and alone so 15 minutes ago or so when he went to go drink (yeah my car still has bloody vomit on it, i cant bear to look at it at the moment lthough its only been like 20 minutes or so) i decided to join this site because the pain and lonliness i feel is eating me alive

Source: http://alcohol.supportgroups.com/sg/alcohol/living-with-a-dying-alcoholic

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